Growing up I was not living in a stable enviornment and was not being parented. My Dad was an alcoholic and my Birth Mom was Anorexic herself and suffered from Schizophrenia. This resulted in a lot of moving around and a lot of me comparing myself to my birth mom. I was probably around the age of seven when it clicked in my brain that if I eat less, I will weigh less or so I thought.

When I was eight my birth mom went into a psychosis and my brother and I got taken away from her. My Dad found out and quick drinking cold turkey to take care of my brother and I. To this day my Dad is my best friend. I never used any behaviors or anything until I was eleven. I decided one day I would put my knowledge to the test. I had eaten what had felt like “too much” pizza and decided I would get rid of it. I purged for the first time and it felt good. I had always been a little chubby but I didn’t hate it until I found out I was suppose to.

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